I had written this in December of 2020 but failed to publish it here, so want to do that now. Like many people, 2020 was a blur and a time of loss of varied kinds.
Thank you to all the friends and family who came to
the visitation and services for my mother-in-law, Nancy. Please
continue to pray for the family. November and December usually bring a lot of
activity for our family, as many of our birthdays and anniversaries fall from
Thanksgiving-time through the New Year (including my wedding anniversary, which
is today), so this year will be a time of adjustment. Jay and Nancy would have
celebrated their 62nd wedding anniversary later this month.
Nancy was a gentle and quiet soul. In the years I knew
her, I never saw her speak in anger. She once told me that she was often
misunderstood because people would mistake her quietness for standoffishness,
but those who understood her knew of her kindness. I hope that my children
remember this about their grandmother, how patient and calm she was with
everyone. She was a thoughtful person, paying attention to small details about
people, which I suppose she was good at because she was so quiet.
Nancy was first and foremost a follower of Jesus. She was also an accomplished pianist and
organist, so it is no surprise that she shared that extraordinary talent with
her church family for many wonderful years. I feel like playing the organ is an
unusual gift and a great one to share.
She developed deep and lasting friendships within her
Dorcas group at Sugar Grove Bible Church. These faithful women raised their
children and celebrated life’s ups and downs together over the course of
several decades. I have been blessed to know
many of these lovely ladies myself. Nancy continued to share her love of Christ
as she grew older through devoted service to children’s ministry, Sunday School,
and Vacation Bible School, and by caring for the children of a neighbor who
were also a part of her church family, all of whom grew to love her deeply.
Nancy was an expert gardener and member of several
gardening groups. Her flower gardens were always beautiful and brought pleasure
to many people, including the caretaker herself, who painstakingly planted and
tended from spring until fall each year.
She also donated her gardening talents to several charities and gave
generously from her gardens to friends and family. I am proud to have many of
her flower gifts in my garden, and they will remain a lovely reminder of her
each year when they bloom.
Nancy also had an adventurous streak, learning to snow
ski as an adult, something she enjoyed with all three of her kids. She skied in
Switzerland. She went on annual ski club trips with her son Jeff into her early
sixties. She also fought and beat cancer during those years. I saw her as a
person who was willing to try new things.
After my mother’s untimely death, Nancy was faithful
about asking after me and my dad and patiently listening. Few people reached
out to us after our loss, as I suppose many people feel inclined that “they
don’t know what to say.” However, Nancy understood that she didn’t need to say
anything, just listen. Occasionally she would share a story about her mother, signaling
she understood the importance of my loss. She knew that certain deaths create a
small space that cannot be completely healed in this life, whether a day or a
decade later.
She and my husband Jon shared a little ritual between
them around pink flamingos. How it started is a story for another time, but it
became a tradition that whenever we were traveling, he would purchase a flamingo
souvenir which he would tuck into her flower garden, hide on a shelf, or hang
on her Christmas tree. She would discover it later, and they could share a
laugh or two. We had more than one show
up within our yard or home as well. It
is stories or traditions like this that tether us to someone after they are
gone. I will always think of Nancy when I see a pink flamingo or a pretty
flower garden.
Nancy came from a warm and down-to-earth family who
quickly welcomed me into their clan. I have fond memories of my first meetings
with them and how much “the aunts” doted over me and my children through the
years. It has been sad to watch her generation dying off, one by one. I can
imagine that Nancy felt that same loss and was looking forward to many reunions.
Nancy’s final year in this life was a difficult one. Early
in 2020, memory loss brought about a move to a charming, well-appointed
one-bedroom assisted living apartment lovingly decorated by her daughter Jill
to recreate as much as the home environment she was leaving. However, we could
never have anticipated what was coming with the pandemic and the lockdowns of
facilities like hers, nor the rapid deterioration caused by months of isolation
and loneliness that would follow. Only a handful of in-person visits, always
behind masks at a distance. Brief phone or video calls, peering through a
window. Not the best memories for children and grandchildren, and certainly not
for her. Later, there was a fall, which so often hastens death in older people.
I wish I could say that Nancy did not suffer. The
Apostle Paul wrote in Philippians that he knew how to be both full and hungry, and
prosperous and needy, proclaiming that he could do ALL things through Christ.
The “all things” he spoke of were these contrasting experiences of good and
evil. We cannot understand joy without sadness, but Christ will strengthen us.
I am glad that Nancy had that strength.
So, while Nancy departed this life in difficulty, we
are comforted to know that her next sight will be the face of Jesus, as well as
those she has loved and lost. We are
also glad she is healed and at peace and look forward to our own homecoming
with her someday. All the plusses and minuses considered, hers was a life
well-lived.